Day 6: What is the hardest thing you've ever experienced? 

Giving my first baby up for adoption. I could go on and tell you all the details. Tell you the whole amazing, heartbreaking, devastating, beautiful story in it's entirety, but now is not the time. 

But I will say this, though it was, hands down, the HARDEST thing I've ever gone through, it was also one of my greatest blessings. I love my sweet girl but she is where she belongs. 

Day 5: What are the Five Things making me very happy right now?

1. Obviously, this little lady is number one :

2. I am so blessed to have amazing friends. I've had a couple of hard months

 and I couldn't have made it without them. 

3. Springtime.

4. Diet Coke. I know, it's trivial, and petty, but I love it. And somedays, it sure makes things easier. 

5. My Savior. 

Day 4: Describe your relationship with your parents.

This is something that is too complicated and too personal for me to share on here. 

But here's a funny picture of a donkey:

Day 3: 10 Things you would tell your 16 year old self given the chance. 

1. You have a job right? Start putting a little away each paycheck for college, and DON'T TOUCH IT.

2. Cars run on gas, not prayers. You think gas is expensive now....just you wait.

3. You are not fat. Not even close. You aren't even overweight. Your body is strong and healthy, be kind and take better care of it. 

4. Learn about credit and how to budget your money. 

5. Make Jessica stop working at the tanning salon, even if you have to hold onto her ankles, trust me, she will thank you for it. 

5. Do your homework would ya? Get better grades. Pay attention in math. GO to math. 

6. Don't worry so much about what others think about you, I promise that the only two things that matter is what you think about yourself and that Heavenly Father loves you no matter what. 

7. Guess what? Boys...have absolutely no idea what they are doing. When they hurt you it's not intentional, it's because they don't know any better. Don't get too close and just have fun. 

8. Your parents are actually pretty smart. Be where you say you're going to be. Call when you're going to be late. Help out around the house. Talk to them about stuff. And I promise, things will be a little smoother.

9. Appreciate your talents. Learn as much about music as you can. If you put more effort into it, and keep it up, you could go very far. And you won't kick yourself later for giving it up. 

10. Be a better friend. Be loyal. Be grateful for the things that your friends do for you and make sure they know it. And just because a certain someone got kicked out of school, doesn't mean you should forget about them. Because friends will come and go, but this one will always be there for you. Especially when you don't deserve it. 

Day Two: Describe 3 Legitimate Fears and Explain How They Became Fears.

1. Something happening to Blythe that takes her away from me. 

I think that this stems from me not being able to keep my first baby. I was so lucky to have the time that I did with her and I am so very very blessed to have Blythe that sometimes I worry that something bad is going to happen to her. But this is where my faith kicks in and I just simply have to enjoy every moment I have with her and pray daily for her safety. 

2. Getting hurt in a car accident. 

I really don't know where this came from. But if I'm not driving I have my eyes closed most of the time because I'm terrified of getting in a car accident. 

3. Bears. 

Cuz, well......they will rip your face off!! 

Did you that the actual fear of bears is called "Melissophobia"?

I know right?

Easter Weekend.

guess what?

next month I turn the dirty 30.

ugh. 

I'm really trying to embrace my role and leaving my 20's. 

I don't know why I'm so attached, it's not like they were anything glorious.

It's when I did my growing up.

And friends, there's nothing glorious about that. 

Anywho....I stumbled across a challenge on another wonderful womans' blog and I decided to play along. 

It's so eloquently titled:

First up, 20 random facts about myself:

1. I love to read cookbooks, but can't really cook.

2. I am adopted and have a great relationship with my birth mother. 

3. I have attended four colleges, but hold no degree.

4. I have eaten grilled alligator with The Mormon Tabernacle Choir.

5. I have a fear of cotton balls, I can't touch them, look at them or even talk about them. 

6. I love strawberries in things, but think they are gross by themselves. 

7. I am missing a tooth.

8. I have a tattoo.

9. I am afraid of any body of water that where I can't see the bottom. 

10. I HATE wearing jeans. 

11. I have nine screws holding my jaw together.

12. Artichokes are my favorite food.

13. I think Adrien Brody is the most stunning human being on the planet. oh my.  

14. If I had a million dollars one of my first purchases would be a baby hippo.

15. I can't bake a cookie to save my life.

16. I learned how to swim when I was four. 

17. I am afraid of heights. 

18. I wish I knew American Sign language and was fluent.

19. I always wanted at least 10 children. 

20. I have had nine surgeries in my lifetime. 

ta da.